[Clarity]

It's what you don't see as you're looking in the mirror these days.


You're lost and afraid
and you don't know what you want.
You know what you should DO,
but not what you want.


Please excuse my boldness
but I simply must express
that talking in past tense to me
about the life we've shared
only sours this lemon more.
I hate to bother you
as you're checking off the items on the lists you have made
but could you double check one item
because I think today is the day that you remember
you once weren't so lost.
You used to know where you were
...what you were
when you were in my arms.


I've tried reaching into every crevice
every hiding place
or dark corner
in my brain
to find the thoughts
that will help me not to feel hurt.
there is no such place.
no thought planted

giving root to create comfort
I sometimes
purposely sink
deep into thoughts untouched
to try and discover that space
where true love ends and true friendship begins
I'm not sure it exists.
.

To me, my surroundings feel of emptiness;
for, my future is so carefully
branded by you
that the sun light can not
burn off the haze
when you aren't standing in it.
Someday you may realize,

you are not lost
you are here.

I've already found you.
I didn't have to do the searching you now do,
because I never thought you lost.
I've already found you.
If your quest is to claim yourself,
your dignity
your love
your strength
your laughter
your secrets
your heart...
you will find them here.
If you find me,
you will find them.
If you choose to take them,
I will not stop you
If you choose to take them,
it may help you find that

[clarity]


But if you choose to take them
you may also lose me.