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Apr 10, 2011

Contemplation

Found myself, just now, re-discovering a moment of creativity I had with a friend quite some time back... 
       ah the substance of creativity...


Play Me 




Weigh me down love,
Time can wait while lay here
...Silent
Saying unspoken words 
that lead up to moments
[moments]
that cannot be rehearsed
love, I know you better
I know you better this way
better this way...

Sep 28, 2010

I have all these things
Things that I don't deserve
but am blessed with nonetheless

I have a heart to call my own
I have a mother and father
I have two brothers
I have faith
I have employment
I have friends
I have peace when I sleep
I have eyes that see the most beautiful things
I have ears that hear astonishing music
I have sunshine
I have two legs to take me
I have two arms that embrace
I have feelings
I have a full stomach
I have a warm, comfortable bed
I have a roof over my head
I have convenience in travel
I have words to speak
I have memories
I have instincts
I have a purpose
I have questions
I have answers
I have a voice to sing
I have health
I have ability
I have potential

None of which I obtained on my own
To a Father above, who
gives all
knows all
sees all.
I forever give thanks
for all that I am.

Sep 27, 2010

This stillness is sweet.
It almost feels like a sickness.
It leaves a bitter taste
yet leaves you in desperation for more.
Did you know you were the cause
of the cave in?
The cave in that buried my heart
but at the same time created that light
that now shines down upon it,
Like a moment of revelation,
shining into the darkest corners.
Corners that I am no longer afraid of.
If only I would have listened
to the quiet voice
that softly whispers,
Its ok to love
It's ok not to want to let go
It's ok to create a freedom
It's ok
I have tried for so long,
I have wandered...
confused
   helpless
      hurting
But I no longer wander.
Gone are my days of lonely desert,
dry and barren.
My thirst is now quenched.
My eyes soft with tears.
Tears of relief and gratitude
for the refreshment that now touches my lips.
Its the taste of what I've known before
and what I have been missing
finally flooding it's way
back through
all of me. 

Sep 23, 2010

Bad Poetry
   by Ben Lee

Lovin' you makes me wanna spill my heart and soul.
Lovin' you makes me wanna tell you things you've never been told.
Lovin' you makes me wanna write bad poetry.


Loving you makes me wanna waste my time,
So tell me, what's it gonna take to change your mind?
(Lovin' you) How much bad poetry?
And I love you so much, please don't show anyone this stuff
It's between you and me, this bad poetry.


Lovin' you, maybe baby.
Lovin' you, by the phone alone.
Lovin' you, please I'm on my knees,
And that's bad poetry.


Lovin' you, like a rose in june.
Lovin' you, fly me to the moon.
Lovin' you, makes me wanna write bad poetry.

And I love you so much, please don't show anyone this stuff
It's between you and me, this bad poetry.


And I love you so much, please don't show anyone this stuff.
While search for a rhyme, 'cause I'm running out of time.
It's between you and me, this bad poetry.
This bad poetry.



terrorizing my thoughts, feelings and emotions are
[mini monsters]
they disguise themselves as my problems,
worries, stresses and cares

one day they're my mother...
  my brother
  my colleague
  my friend


the next they're my heart...
  how it is feeling
  who I am thinking of
  who is in possession of it


one day they are questions...
  what am I doing with my life?
  what do I really know?
  am I doing the right things?


other days they are discouragement...
  loneliness
  stress
  grief


some rare evenings I am free of them
they seem to scatter like mites in lantern light
rare evenings where I can
  dance
  or laugh
  or sing


my mini monsters are like
the sole of a sneaker
built tough
to withstand any attempt at
   wearing
       them
          down


sometimes they're confusion
  delay
  distraction
  or despair


sometimes they are light...
 i won't notice they are there
sometimes they are heavy...
 almost more than I can bare


They catch me off guard
 they puzzle my puzzler
they twinge and they squirm
 when i try to ignore
they splutter and spout
 when I think about stuffing them out


they fight and they whine
 when i decide to admit
 something is making me happy


they bite and they snarl
 at a fleeting thought of love
  truth
  compassion
  clarity


they crawl all around
 they slither and hiss
they mock and they pester
 never seeming to quit


Sometimes they fight each other
 and those moments when they do
they're distracted just long enough
 for me to be happy here with you

Sep 22, 2010

Dance into the night
     dance into the stars
         dance into your dreams that sweep you into peace
Eyelids close
  thoughts collide
     content to be this way
Clouds drift away
    moon shines down
       music drifts through breeze filled skies,
Plays as if the night will stay on repeat forever
    never fully understanding what it means
        to be here with you
But being here nonetheless,
  content right where we are
let it be
   let time pass
       so long as we never ask for it back
never regretting the time we spent
   dancing into the night
      dancing into the stars
          dancing into our dreams...
 
 
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