someone find me
love me, bind me
tourture me with kindness
hold me in arms so strong
that love welds us as one
with furrowed brow
look me in the eyes
tell me there is nothing


     nothing


          nothing

in the world or universe
that would change the way you feel
or take you away from my side


  hold me


    fold me


in uncommunicated
yet understood
deep, sincere and growing


[ love ]


I know you are out there.
touch my hand
and when the spark,
we both will see,
may I never, then, without you be.

Over are the tears I cried for you
Finished is my pride.
I no longer race to where my wishful heart placed its' dreams.
I put my heart in a hope that is no longer real.
I really just don't know
how to feel

Ah, but a man's reach should exceed his grasp,
or what's a heaven for?
- Robert Browning

It takes courage,
   this life.

 [What is courage?]

Courage, also known as bravery, fortitude, will, and intrepidity, is the ability to confront fear, pain, risk/danger, uncertainty, or intimidation. "Physical courage" is courage in the face of physical pain, hardship, death, or threat of death, while "moral courage" is the ability to act rightly in the face of popular opposition, shame, scandal, or discouragement.


It is an enlightening to think about. Even the world, in it's ability to dash hopes and destroy morality, recognizes that courage is more than merely strength and bravery in hardship.

Find courage.
     Take courage.
             Be courage.

The best time to

[reflect]

is when you like the person looking back at you.

Our fire...

You, and making right my wrongs are all I can think about anymore.
I miss you
A lot more than a lot
I pray for you each day and night
I can't wait to see your face
your smile
To hear your laugh
To hold you once again.
The flame of love can flicker
but all it takes is one drop of gasoline
and
it will erupt into flames
brighter and hotter than ever burned before.
I'm collecting kindling now
to keep the fires glow
steady and sure
forever more.

I believe that when we feel confused, there is a higher road that will bring peace.

--Make a choice--

Sometimes it will be wrong, but choosing will always prove more benificial

than staring as far as the eye can see down

both paths.

Redirecting your path if you choose wrong

will teach you things

you never would have learned if you simply

chose not to choose.

[Ought to Be]
     ~Audrey Assad
             album "The House you're Building"

I love you more than a slow falling summer rain
More than a silence that only the snow leaves behind
I love you more

And I love you better than the gray of the autumn air
Better than spring in its blooming against the sky
I love you more

It may not be red as the roses yet
It may not be strong as the old oak trees but
Love planted deeply becomes what it ought to be

Your love is steady and sure as the mountains high
Moving my heart like a river that gently bends
Your love is sure

Your love is wide open spaces where I can run
And yet, we're tangled up roots in the warm broken earth
Yeah, our love is sure.

And it may not be clear as the morning yet
It may not be wide as a restless sea but
Love given freely becomes what it ought to be

It may not be clear as the morning yet
It may not be wide as the restless sea
And it may not be res as the roses yet
It may not be strong as the old oak trees but

Love planted deeply becomes what it ought to and
Hearts given freely become what they ought to
Love planted deeply becomes what it ought to be
What it ought to be.

For the one I love with a love that can't be placed on a shelf or carried away by the wind.

I hope you know who you are.

I love you. I will look in your eyes and tell you that...soon

Forever, Kels

[optimism]

The difference between

{{stumbling blocks}}

and

] ] stepping stones [ [

is how you use them.

I have been concerned lately with "who I am", feeling like I lack the identity needed to be able to claim that I know who I am. Through recent words of scripture and prophets and much pondering I've realized that the discovery of our true identity happens in and through our Savior Jesus Christ, living His gospel, and learning his teachings. With such realization and more eternal goals in mind, I decided to purchase a new triple combination. I hope to dive into the living waters and begin absorbing knowledge I've truly been missing.

I have set a temple goal. No date yet, but while talking with my bishop I decided that striving to enter the temple, worthy and prepared, would be an excellent way to focus my good intentions and turn them into patterns of righteousness that I hope to pursue for the rest of eternity.

I have decided not to have my name put on my new set of scriptures until I am able and worthy to enter the temple. It will serve as a symbol of discovering my identity. By obtaining and maintaining a temple recommend I will be able to say that I know who I am... Kelsee...A daughter of a divine Heavenly Father and a disciple of Jesus Christ, who has made it possible for me to have a life of substance, meaning and every lasting happiness I could ever imagine.

I'm grateful for growth and
opportunity
and [humbled]
by
His grace and
Love.

And remember this truth...

[ hope ]

It lives. It breathes. It was created. Power to the powerless.

I feel hope. I see hope. I posess hope.

Today is that better day.

Come what may,

hope will still exist

tomorrow.

Feels like the Flu
     by Iris Orprecio a.k.a. Iris Orpi
     http://irisisms.wordpress.com/

I have made the conscious choice
to never forget what it feels like
to be taken care of by someone

I’ve earned a PhD
in independence
and a black belt
in the martial art
of basic survival
I’ve become an expert
in taking care of me
When I’m sick
I arrange
for my own replacement
at the office
ahead of time
bring my own [self]
to the doctor
pay for my prescription
with my own money
and wind up alarm clocks
so that I take
my meds on time

Right now it feels like the flu
and nobody knows but me.
I’m all alone at 8pm
at an expensive restaurant
on 31st Street
having cream of corn soup
and hot tea with honey and lemon
waiting for my 9pm appointment
at the hospital across the street.

It would be nice
to look up
and look into
eyes who can see
that I am not well
a man who would know
that I am ill
and tell me
to get some rest
and skip work for the day tomorrow
I probably won’t listen to him
and still go in the morning
only to realize at noon
I’m too sick to keep going
I’ll call him
and he’ll drop what he’s doing
drive by my building
to pick me up
short of carrying me
in his arms
and say, “I told you so”
and he’ll tuck me into bed
and kiss me
on the forehead
and make me cream of corn soup
and hot tea with honey and lemon
* * *
I promised myself
I won’t forget
or stop believing
I deserve it